Let’s just say I’m having a perfectly lovely day taking a stroll in my wheelchair. I am rolling down this amazing dirt road drinking in the fresh air and the feeling that comes from being at one with nature. Yesterday, the temperature was 107°, this being a record high summer all across the United States.
However, today for some unknown reason which has scientists and local weathermen mind boggled; today it is 75° and absolutely gorgeous. And so, for me, a woman with multiple sclerosis which makes dealing with the heat atrocious, I am finally able to go outside and get some fresh air. I’ve been stuck in the house for two months other than the fact that I’ve gone to the Dr. for one thing or another.
It was an exhilarating time and I am proud of myself just for taking the initiative to get outside and enjoy the wonders of nature.
And then, God damn it! I woke up! It was a dream. One of those wonderful dreams, almost orgasmic where you just don’t want to wake up and face another day of the same old shit.
I turn on the television to see what the weather report is for today and here is what I saw.
The forecast for someone with MS. trying to turn the Channels doesn’t work. DAMN DAMN DAMN! I’ve still got MS. no matter what I do, or try to do because my body’s not working very well anymore and I’m paralyzed on my left side and often times in pain.
I have learned over the years how to temper my emotions; my sadness, my fear, my depression. I see a psychotherapist twice a month. I meditate I read inspirational books and I spent a lot of time on the computer reaching out to other people in the same pickle that on so that I know I am not alone and that beast will not take me down.
I am actually doing quite well under the circumstances and have actually been able to write a book which I have entitled Potty Mouth because it is about my life living with multiple sclerosis which is a god damn mother fucking disease. So I took some lemons and I made some lemonade! You can find the website for my book right here. And don’t forget that I am giving a percentage of book sales to the National MS Society so I can be part of the solution to the problem . We need to stamp out this horrible monster which affects over 2.5 million people around the world and 400,000 people in the United States. Thanks guys, much love.