Multiple Sclerosis is a mean son of a bitch! And there are times when it will just come right up behind you and give you a full force shove meaning to push you right off the cliff. It has no care whatsoever, no conception of the hurt, pain, humiliation and degradation that it leaves in its wake. There are times when it seems as though MS is an entity all its own and it is a totally separate being from myself who has attached its talons to my brain and spinal column even in my dreams.
And as with everything else that comes along, I pick myself up, dust myself off, and I start all over again perhaps a little scuffed up and a little more scarred and at the same time stronger and tougher than before. And maybe you weren’t aware that orange is the official color of MS. Well, it is and it is also one of my favorite fruits with the tang and a zing that you could add to almost anything and it will make it taste even better. Perhaps that is why it is the color for MS. Bright and cheerful with a tough outer layer that protects the soul within so even when we get bumped and bruised we are still vibrant and lively inside.
So really, the only thing to do, the best thing to do is to pick yourself up and just keep going wherever the road of life leads to.it’s no use dwelling upon things that it happened in the past. God knows I’ve done enough of that since my MS diagnosis over 40 years ago! And it also doesn’t mean that there has not been a lot of self-pity, crying why God why? Sending myself into frenzy of not knowing how I’m ever going to go on or what the hell I am going to do. Just because it’s the best thing to do doesn’t mean that it’s the easiest thing to do. It’s often times the hardest thing. But along with the loss and grief comes self-awareness and self growth.
When I would really love is to have orange trees growing in my yard not only for the deliciousness, the sweetness and the beauty and also for the gentle reminder that yes, I do have MS and yes, I do have much to share.
I have shared my story in the book I have written Potty Mouth which you can now find as an e-book and as a paper back! It is available at Barnes & Noble, Amazon, Author House and in other fine bookstores everywhere.if you are someone with MS or if you know someone with MS give the book as a gift. 10% of all the book sales are going to The MS Society. I want to be able to be someone who can say I helped to find a cure.